tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31457242011-08-29T09:16:04.205-07:00if.you.call,i.will.answer.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comBlogger2231100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1123654596302841902005-08-09T23:16:00.000-07:002005-08-09T23:16:36.310-07:00Are you alive?Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1100010448729416332004-11-09T06:27:00.000-08:002004-11-09T06:27:28.730-08:00that one stung in the chest.
i'm going to so call you,m watch.
jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1098329486431528792004-10-20T20:30:00.000-07:002004-10-20T20:31:26.430-07:00thanks for keeping in touch.
*bitter sarcasm*
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1090732159923769112004-07-24T22:07:00.000-07:002004-07-24T22:09:19.923-07:00.... and when i try t0 walk away you hurt yourself to make me staythis is crazy, this is crazy...
i 've been MIA too... i cant randomly note all the things that i've left out, cuz i cant even think of them irght now. miss you so, im back online.
DilemmaNo67@aol.com
209 854 1383
jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1085356301330916482004-05-23T16:50:00.000-07:002004-05-23T16:51:41.330-07:00it could all be so simple
but youd rather make it hard
loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars
tell me who i have to be...
see no one lo ve s you more than me and
no one ev er willl...Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1082520902807861692004-04-20T21:15:00.000-07:002004-04-20T21:18:00.513-07:00hey jacs. it's rams, i know this is a two person blogger, and there is a slim to none chance of it being anyone else. i guess i just had to announce myself cos i've been mia for a while. in the last month i had surgery, fought with my mom to postpone my wedding, broke up with manuel. got back together. went back to nursing. had major breakdowns. visted with katie and gabe cos they we're down for Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1078466829095625532004-03-04T22:07:00.000-08:002004-03-04T22:09:19.873-08:00hello, i love you, won't you tell me your namejacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1077768394662807002004-02-25T20:06:00.000-08:002004-02-25T20:08:37.356-08:00hey you. did you tell karen i was down? why does she have to ruin everything good in life? I swear, I'm not even allowed to talk to you. I miss you rams, I feel like me even blogging in our blog is like, illegal. Like your sitting somewhere right now with everyone else in pittsburg wearing an "anti-Jaci" tee shirt picketting in front of my mom's house or something.. i don't understand these jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1075326425639249712004-01-28T13:47:00.000-08:002004-01-28T13:48:39.436-08:00can't speak for the world baby, but if you call me i'll answer. no really. 594-0722.
love u.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1074744244861466382004-01-21T20:04:00.000-08:002004-01-21T20:05:32.513-08:00i'm always callin, and it never feels like anyone answers.
not you, but the world in general.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1073696082282695492004-01-09T16:54:00.000-08:002004-01-09T16:55:57.280-08:00hmmm.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1071787233559161332003-12-18T14:40:00.000-08:002003-12-18T14:41:26.890-08:00hey baby, miss you too. i was iming you, and you weren't answering. i signed on a gain, a little while later, and you weren't on. what's up? anything better? new developments? im so hungry. i think im gonna get a burrito.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1071777620390158892003-12-18T12:00:00.000-08:002003-12-18T12:01:14.170-08:00somedays i have soft hair..
and some days, i miss you more than i could ever explain..
and on the other days, my hair might be nappy, frizzy, hair sprayed, gelled, curly...
but i still miss you, even if it is a little more explainable, it's still unbearable..jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1071000327786299212003-12-09T12:05:00.000-08:002003-12-09T12:06:12.560-08:00i try to keep faith..jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1070844520581734632003-12-07T16:48:00.000-08:002003-12-07T16:49:22.983-08:00beauty always complicates.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1068944743820441552003-11-15T17:05:00.000-08:002003-11-15T17:06:05.153-08:00he said things that manuel always lets me know too..( you're beautiful, bla blah) but coming from someone new it was just. nice.
in a guilty way.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1068520131259095052003-11-10T19:08:00.000-08:002003-11-10T19:08:48.973-08:00im sure you'll be ok.
well, i hope so.
wait, i know so.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1068496093409436242003-11-10T12:28:00.000-08:002003-11-10T12:28:10.876-08:00my boytoy and i are having some drama... him and i are getting along, except i've been really sick, like, weak and vomitting for days, and i'm late.
the tests say no, but i'm still sick.
but soon.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1068483039677187792003-11-10T08:50:00.000-08:002003-11-10T08:50:37.653-08:00when can you c0ome out? your boytoy included?
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067900018663336612003-11-03T14:53:00.000-08:002003-11-03T14:53:36.740-08:00i am your friend, one of your best... top of the line.
mMmM a burrito, i'm all for it!jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067794007483098232003-11-02T09:26:00.000-08:002003-11-02T09:27:05.630-08:00hey, just come back and be my friend.
move to pittsburg.
we can go to berkeley. and i promise to get you the best damn burrito you've ever tasted.
no shit.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067568838635182722003-10-30T18:53:00.000-08:002003-10-30T18:53:57.963-08:00"i have a story, a bitter anthum, about this kid who just don't like me.. they say he's hunting me, and as you see, i'm all swelled up with fear, cuz i can't get him off my back... if you see jordan, he makes me sick... high school's over, and you still won't quit... "
hey! la la la, whats up? i got my trucky fixed, so i'm so happy!jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067554671287047892003-10-30T14:57:00.000-08:002003-10-30T14:57:50.613-08:00i cant keep it alll together
i know, i know i know,
i cant keep it all together
..
now im going down, and youre not even around..Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067530517464432342003-10-30T08:15:00.000-08:002003-10-30T08:15:05.923-08:00love u too sweetheart
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067391040285091262003-10-28T17:30:00.000-08:002003-10-28T17:30:39.413-08:00LOVER Ujacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1067107863944361552003-10-25T11:51:00.000-07:002003-10-25T11:54:05.313-07:00i'm tryin my best, jacs.
i dont even want in on this though. step on the scence, so im not forced to discuss all this, without me even knowin whats goin on.
F o k u z 1: she played me for a rebound last week, kissed me, layed with me, said she was my girl....why does she have to run back to him.
F o k u z 1: awe.
F o k u z 1: i haven't taken this bracelet off in years
Rammy4594: Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066965596205326782003-10-23T20:19:00.000-07:002003-10-23T20:19:56.060-07:00so.......you're alive and marrying eddie?
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066884188269368412003-10-22T21:43:00.000-07:002003-10-22T21:43:07.856-07:00thanks. =)Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066852958893817162003-10-22T13:02:00.000-07:002003-10-22T13:02:39.006-07:00I'm writing just to let u know I'm still alivejacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066621213417322102003-10-19T20:40:00.000-07:002003-10-19T20:40:13.146-07:00hey! i wanted to come out with james and ed today! i hella would of, but i have a midterm at 10 o clock in the am! i love you so much, and i mean what i said in that lj-cut. i miss you stupud crazy, sorry for not being around. maybe i'll see you sometime this week..but you gotta promise to feed m e and my beau! by the way, im watchin scarface and it's the scary chainsaw scene ! !! you rock my Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066358572318041652003-10-16T19:42:00.000-07:002003-10-16T19:42:51.830-07:00hey baby, so sorry. im...i dont know. what's up? i hung out with eddie yesterday, he was throwin a fit the last tiume i talked to him about how he doesnt have friends...so we called up james and alex and edster...it didnt feel like an obligation though. i liked it.
i'm sick. so sick. not pretty. i think i got manuel sick too. and i have to go to school tommorow. not fun. how's nick? hmmm? im Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1066153101821228352003-10-14T10:38:00.000-07:002003-10-14T10:38:21.570-07:00i cannot express how much i NEED RAMAN right NOW.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1065500520786958252003-10-06T21:22:00.000-07:002003-10-06T21:22:00.653-07:00he's making me sound mean?! i've been nothing but sweet to eddie.. just because i have a new guy in my life, it's not like i'm lying about it. eddie and i have been on a rocky path for a long long time, and he moved on, why can't i?
anyway, gosh.. this is so weird. nick and i are good again, it's so... nice, to have someone show me such possitive attention. so what? nick and i are sleeping jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1065479825722036452003-10-06T15:37:00.000-07:002003-10-06T15:37:24.790-07:00come up to meet you, tell you im sorry, you dont know how lovely you are, i had to find you, tell you i need you, tell you i set you apart, tell me your secrets, ask your questions, oh lets go back to the start..running in circles...nobody said it easy. its such a shame forus to part, nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard, oh take me back to the start. i was just Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1065285693212737902003-10-04T09:41:00.000-07:002003-10-04T09:41:32.946-07:00please do so. cos i've been hearin from eddie nonstop..and im like, what?! jacs could never be so cruel. and yeah. DISH!
when are you going to be in the burg?Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1065239760432322482003-10-03T20:56:00.000-07:002003-10-03T20:56:00.586-07:00man i have some major, MAJOR dishing to do.
i miss u too.
love you so much ramsjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1065232913416512242003-10-03T19:01:00.000-07:002003-10-03T19:01:53.516-07:00I love and miss you so much JL
My Profile
eddie's away message.
he was talking about how much he misses you, loves you, etc.
i miss you too jacs.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064740652129804352003-09-28T02:17:00.000-07:002003-09-28T02:17:32.033-07:00what do you mean nothing this serious?
hey,is eddie ok? or just attention starved on lj? i'm worried.
what a fucking prick- (nick)
k, i just got home from wedding madness and i havent smoked for 2 days, so im goin outside. love you.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064582181674615102003-09-26T06:16:00.000-07:002003-09-26T06:16:21.610-07:00nothing this serious has ever happened before... not outside of family... it kindof scares me.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064582152509294252003-09-26T06:15:00.000-07:002003-09-26T06:15:52.453-07:00A certain callousness complies with your charm & in your pride a hopeful look draped in despise.
I want to give you whatever you need. What is it you need? Is it what I need? I want to give you whatever you need. What is is you need? Is it within me?
It's hard to explain how I am getting by on so little from you. It's hard to believe that I would let myself get so wrapped in you. There's got jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064580777897376032003-09-26T05:52:00.000-07:002003-09-26T05:52:57.346-07:00god i hate boys!jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064496997839035672003-09-25T06:36:00.000-07:002003-09-25T06:36:37.470-07:00that blogger totally made me 5000% happier. lol. whoever alden is, i am now inlove with him.
so, nick is no longer so great.
we fucked. and he just left me laying there, alone, passed out. and then bragged about how good he was, if he was so good, why dont i remember?! lmao... and he's all trippin off me, but look at me, i'm not trippin about him, i want james. life goes on!
love you... oh,jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064467703140776652003-09-24T22:28:00.000-07:002003-09-24T22:28:23.013-07:00LOL!
heregoesnothing.blogspot.com
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064467412183060252003-09-24T22:23:00.000-07:002003-09-24T22:23:32.110-07:00hmmm..
that sounds not good.
i'm always weary of seeing boys i have complex feelings for when i'm drunk. it just complicates it even more.
sorry dear.
i've been, listenin to fiona, spending lots of time, like always with manuel. yeah, i miss myfriends once in awhile, but when we're apart, all i do is think/talkabout/miss him. so what the hell? we still hang out with a couple people, like jamesRamanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064447775800510582003-09-24T16:56:00.000-07:002003-09-24T16:56:15.140-07:00sophmore year... reminising everyday about it. always.
bestfriend, agreed.
i got so drunk last night at a party with cortney, and i had to call nick and have him come with me... and, disaster, not completely, but, i only remember peices of last night. heh. explain more later, what i can remember anyways. nick is so great, but then today was weird, i'm kindof worried about what i don't rememberjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064105365576167212003-09-20T17:49:00.000-07:002003-09-20T17:49:25.226-07:00leah failed to reply,
wanna be my best friend again?
yeah, im being a loser.
i miss manuel.
i, just, i dont know.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064105320508189872003-09-20T17:48:00.000-07:002003-09-20T17:48:40.163-07:00when the rain season comes, oh god, i can't wait. it's so sophmore year, and you, you are the only person that understands that, gosh, i so.
want.
something.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064030899487105602003-09-19T21:08:00.000-07:002003-09-19T21:08:19.560-07:00the rain season is almost here.. rain is so my season. rain is my cure, the water mends my trouble bones.
i feel good when i lyric post, because it expresses me, and i know nobody ever reads lyric posts, but you do, and i know you understand.
because we're so deep.
i love you. jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1064030817577660742003-09-19T21:06:00.000-07:002003-09-19T21:06:57.670-07:00okay so, i have to be at work in an hour and a half, or rather, leave for work then.... hmph.
"i worry, i weigh three times my body,
i worry, i throw my fear around,
but this morning, theres a calm i can't explain
the rock candy is melted only diamonds now remain,
but by the time i recognize this moment this moment will be gone
but i will spend my life pretending that it somehow lingered on,
jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063953310145321032003-09-18T23:35:00.000-07:002003-09-18T23:45:35.116-07:00;
please come back.
i missed you too,
and i hope you feel better.
i love you so much.
Rammy4594: i was thinkin about emailin that foo james, do you know if he ever gets on anymore?
StuckBetweenToes: hardly.
StuckBetweenToes: and he never returns e-mails either!
StuckBetweenToes: he hasn't e-mailed me in weeks.
Rammy4594: aww man, what a sucka.
StuckBetweenToes: indeed.
Rammy4594: i guess ill Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063953263297777582003-09-18T23:34:00.000-07:002003-09-18T23:34:22.986-07:00theres no subsitute for time'
fuck. that's a a fucking line.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063943473805214262003-09-18T20:51:00.000-07:002003-09-18T20:51:13.226-07:00my song of the moment: john mayer- split screen sadness
maybe i'll sleep inside my coat
and wait on your porch till you come back home,
oh thats right, i can't find a flight..
all you need is love is a lie, because we had love yet we still said goodbye, now we're tired, battered fighters
and it stings when it's nobodys fault cuz theres no one to blame at the drop of a name, it's only the airjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063859551609531122003-09-17T21:32:00.000-07:002003-09-17T21:32:31.306-07:00everyone is torn at some point or another, or every second of everyday, you know whichever. the way i figure is, life is like a choose your adventure book..who doesnt spoil the read by exploring every possible outcome. sometimes you have to cheat, and sometimes, it doesn't even seem right to say cheat at all. cos all you're doing is looking our for yourself. i dont know if that makes sense.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063702066932471462003-09-16T01:47:00.000-07:002003-09-16T01:55:44.796-07:00This weekend, was totally weird.... i'll explain later.
something else weird... i am so inlove with eddie. You know when you think you are inlove, and your not questioning it,but then you still are into other people, anyway... i kindof hooked up with another guy, we aren't dating, but i mean, you know, we're 'talking' and he's all into me, and he's so cute no, he's hella hott, i have pictures,jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063425845632258052003-09-12T21:04:00.000-07:002003-09-13T13:57:19.970-07:00hey, life is. alright i guess. i dont know. yeah. hi. manuel got his keys taken away to his beautiful, or his dad's beautiful legend, cos we got caught cutting film class..cos jose called manuel's mom and informed her on the whole situation. it's so sad. i've been taking him to school and he's been riding the bart back. jose is fucking clingy as all hell. i swear to god he's inlove with my Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063341136204067252003-09-11T21:32:00.000-07:002003-09-11T21:32:16.160-07:00god, hey. hows life? good i think? here, its just life, as always. i love you, and need,... something.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1063011852987504522003-09-08T02:04:00.000-07:002003-09-08T02:04:13.003-07:00"I am driving 85 in the kindof morning that, lasts all afternoon,
just stuck inside the gloom...
...cause i, wonder sometimes, about the outcome,
am i still devoted to this life?
am i living it right?"
RAMMY, WHERE R U?jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1062643185103259032003-09-03T19:39:00.000-07:002003-09-03T19:39:45.023-07:00i need you so, get on get on get on.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1062563643083850592003-09-02T21:34:00.000-07:002003-09-02T21:34:03.110-07:00heyy,
love you.
miss you.
cant think right now
you're beautiful jaci
i really wish you lived in pittsburg
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1062499441559762542003-09-02T03:44:00.000-07:002003-09-02T03:44:01.556-07:00'i'm, writing you to catch you up on places i've been...
hoping i would see the world thru both my eyes,
maybe i will tell you all about it,
when i'm in the mood to lose my way with words
today, skies are painting colors of the cowboy cliche,
and strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky are next to mountains anyway..
let me say, you should have seen that sunrise, with your jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061852718063405182003-08-25T16:05:00.000-07:002003-08-25T16:05:18.080-07:00hey,
'reach down your hand in your pocket now, pull out some hope for me'jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061780885300618772003-08-24T20:08:00.000-07:002003-08-24T20:08:05.316-07:00hey love, i, alot is up, but i just came home from OLM Mass, and I feel SO WONDERFUL. Our minister gave a a kiss and forgave me of all my sins, and I don't feel guilty or dirty anymore. But, I have done quite a few harmful things this week, so unless you already heard, i'll inform you later, i love youjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061589153129239102003-08-22T14:52:00.000-07:002003-08-22T14:52:59.156-07:00what up, whats happenin? ive been THE social butterfly nowadaze, i had that those beers at ciso's and eversince then, altho not too long ago, ive been having one or two each day. i knew i shouldnt of, but ohwell. yeah, i was a hardcore alcoholic before, during, and a little after washington. manuels been giving me dissapproving looks. but he never says a word. deep down, he trusts my every actionRamanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061441774862496042003-08-20T21:56:00.000-07:002003-08-20T21:56:14.763-07:00hey. dude, what happened? u said you blogged on the phone, and u didnt.. where are you? i miss you.. sorry you didn't have fun with me today, we'll hang out again soonjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061377289520353982003-08-20T04:01:00.000-07:002003-08-20T04:01:29.410-07:00i...
i just woke up.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061276480065416352003-08-19T00:01:00.000-07:002003-08-19T00:01:19.953-07:00you are the tina to my jaci, i just dont want to drag you down,
like i drag everyone down, all the timejacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061273657133255732003-08-18T23:14:00.000-07:002003-08-18T23:20:33.843-07:00From: RANDUMBTHOUGHTS@aol.com | This is spam | Add to Address Book
Date: Mon, 18 Aug 2003 22:14:35 EDT
Subject: kinda long
To: dazeofphoniex@yahoo.com
hey! first off,im sorry for telling jose,i didnt tell him much,but i
know,its
wrong.i love you babe.youre not a trophy i like to parade around,your
more to
me than just someone to kiss.i love the way you think.i wish i could
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061272002711020062003-08-18T22:46:00.000-07:002003-08-18T22:46:42.610-07:00So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
When a female fires back
Suddenly the target don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy will do
Making up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularityjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061271489814972132003-08-18T22:38:00.000-07:002003-08-18T22:38:09.843-07:00Somewhere deep inside me I hold a picture
of a time long gone- a time of ease and
simple pleasures and days in shadows not
so long
Now with my mind I'm struggling, holding
on to what I believe- listen to the fragments of my thoughts
that leave me broken and deceived
'Cause I don't know the way he said, "I
can take you there, I can show you
places where our time has had no ware"
And as we jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061270351240991882003-08-18T22:19:00.000-07:002003-08-18T22:19:11.246-07:00I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around us disappears
it`s Just you and me
on my island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek
Oh but every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
And I forgot
tojacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061162554785260392003-08-17T16:22:00.000-07:002003-08-17T16:22:34.810-07:00hey, im sorry about your mama, my dear. what brought this on? are you ok? that's a stupid question, but is there anything i can do? i love you. i'm sorry. leah talked to me the other day, i guess somethin wasnt so perfect in her life, and she remembered me. which is really quite funny huh? i dont know. i'm not sure if im gonna call her, or see her again for a long time. you know, when your littleRamanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061147619479477112003-08-17T12:13:00.000-07:002003-08-17T12:13:39.516-07:00my mom is locked up for trying to kill herself and alcohol poisoning.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1061099625957758722003-08-16T22:53:00.000-07:002003-08-16T22:53:45.860-07:00i got your letter, i'm glad you wrote me. i'm here, and i miss you.
you know, i'm so back to being skater girl jaci... lol. it's so weird, oh-well. i'll always be ramans jaci, before raman was leahs raman, jaci was ramans jaci, so i'm still here, and i will be forever. yeah, im tired, i'll be on tomorrow to email you some love. xoxojacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-106058220197909482003-08-10T23:10:00.000-07:002003-08-10T23:10:23.460-07:00tonight i had two very different conversations:
THIS IS SONI& MANUEL by the way.
Rammy4594: bro, ____________ is certainly pimping them hoes.
Rammy4594: and not being quiet about it either.
SoNiLuVsFangS: say whaaa
Rammy4594: hey, whatever happened to robert!?
SoNiLuVsFangS: he's around
Rammy4594: shes talkin about college boys and stuff.
SoNiLuVsFangS: oh yea
Rammy4594: yeah, whats up with Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1060404143993616992003-08-08T21:42:00.000-07:002003-08-08T21:42:23.900-07:00no no no, i was in love with eddie. i'm currently in love with manuel. and plan to remain like so until..well, forever. i just had been thinking about what an asshole that guy was to me. but im not mad, and i've been extremely civil not more than the lj replies, and short email have been included in this " drama" which feels like a fuckin musical compared to what we've been through.
what's with Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1060243478126817212003-08-07T01:04:00.000-07:002003-08-07T01:04:38.106-07:00okay so, your inlove with eddie, and uhh, he rejected you?
he's telling me that you and i must have bs'd with him in this blog, cuz now your mad at him, when i didnt even talk to you in DAYS... anyway, what IS up?
i was in town the other day, sorry i didnt call, was only there for like, 2 hours, went out to eat with eddie and keena, stoppped by james, keep that on the dl, karen did an AWESOME jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1060233017152747612003-08-06T22:10:00.000-07:002003-08-06T22:10:17.203-07:00i cant seem to make you mine
kissing all around all the time
flying all around like a bee
hurting everything you see
try everything i knowoh, to make you want love me so
the only the thing there is to do
cant you see what you're doing to me
you fill my life with misery
with every breath every step i take im more in love with you
i cant go on like this, a little bit of love, not a kiss
i gotta Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1059446375545231062003-07-28T19:39:00.000-07:002003-07-28T19:39:35.496-07:00omg,imissyousomuch.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1059106121970459702003-07-24T21:08:00.000-07:002003-07-24T21:08:41.976-07:00hey, been kinda stagnant cos comps been broken..
i love you too.
send me email love.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1058289846651574132003-07-15T10:24:00.000-07:002003-07-15T10:24:06.650-07:00rams...whereareou?myspacebarisbroken..bringbackoldmemoriesofmypreviousdeadkeyboard?RIPkeyboardfrombeyond.
loveu.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1057305924982902262003-07-04T01:05:00.000-07:002003-07-04T01:05:25.020-07:00jonathon huh?
not asking who he is, or drawing any conclusions, just saying..
"jonathon huh?"
so fucking hott you say? i'll take your word for it.
its so troubling to witness the downfall of eddienjacs y jamesnkaren but somehow, in someway, entertaining, i know it's horrible to say, so mean and vicious, but the thing ive always liked about us is brutal honesty, and webs of deciet at times. i'veRamanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1057043060968209002003-07-01T00:04:00.000-07:002003-07-01T00:04:20.963-07:00what're you guys fighting about now? or is it insignificant, and paltry, but nonetheless time/emotion consuming,
you know, sometimes, people end up staying long after sparks have died, and feelings run dry.
mere dependency. you know that though.
and i dont think you come to me, thinking i have anything to offer,
i just yeah, if you call, i will answer..
i wish you were still in pittsburg. Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1057025945660841872003-06-30T19:19:00.000-07:002003-06-30T19:19:05.686-07:00i want to talk to you now, too.
eddie and i are soooo drifted apart, all we do is fight. not like before though, before we'd fight, and make-up, and be all inlove, now we fight, then fight about the fight, then fight about a fight we had 2 years ago, then fight about something else.
we changed so much, so why can't we just keep changing into something better? because i do love him sojacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1056612735561057452003-06-26T00:32:00.000-07:002003-06-26T00:33:12.596-07:00that there, that's not me
im not here, this isnt happening
i've been so dead to my emotions lately. each day is tedium, each conversation shallow.
then, i go home, to his bed, which is my home, so i said, home, and that's the first time i've thought that or written that, so yeah.
and i crash down on zebra sheets, he puts his arms around me, and i die. i die, and am reborn,
each movement, each Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1056403667836658902003-06-23T14:27:00.000-07:002003-06-23T14:27:47.800-07:00I think
It’s getting to the point where I can be myself again
I think
It’s getting to the point where we have almost made amends
I think
It’s the getting to the point that is the hardest part
And if you call
I will answer
And if you fall
I’ll pick you up
And if you court this disaster
I’ll point you home
I’ll point you home
You think
I only think about you when we’re both in the same room
I’m jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-1055383287042204272003-06-11T19:01:00.000-07:002003-06-11T19:01:27.023-07:00im coming home june 12th too. to pittsburg that is... i'm driving myself... im leaving at 1..
want me to pick u up to go to grad? i wanna leave early, to get a good spot, loljacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-952969662003-06-04T12:36:00.000-07:002003-06-04T12:36:01.786-07:00take me to the place i love.
take me all the way.
june 12, i'm coming home.
when will you be in town?
wanna do something the dayof the 13?
will you watch everyone graduate with me..?
i dont want to be alone.
i told manuel i would go.
(halfheartedly.)
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-952298752003-06-03T02:34:00.000-07:002003-06-03T02:34:22.846-07:00i'm taking my GED to go to college too... if i didn't tell you im going to teach.. i know i know.
no mother is ever right, not just no mother, but no one is ever right when they are telling you what to do. don't ever pursue any kind of life that won't satisfy your yearning, if nursing won't make you happy, fuck nursing.
i love youjacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-945467062003-05-18T12:59:00.000-07:002003-05-18T12:59:44.863-07:00about my mother.
i want to be productive. i 'm taking my ged on tuseday and wednesday.
i need to take the sats, for college apps.
i still dont know what to do with my life.
i kind of let my mom tell me SAINT MARY'S/SAMUEL MERRITT! NURSING!
but then, a couple of weeks ago, i told her i seriously straight from the heart am not interested.
so she's like, fine.....what are you going to do?
and i Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-941838232003-05-11T21:21:00.000-07:002003-05-11T21:21:25.250-07:00if you go
if you go
and leave me here on my own..
i will wait for you, yeah i will wait for you.
last night, we fought. like crying, hanging up, withholding "i love you"s FIGHTING. and it hurt.
soo bad.
but in the end, i just felt so relieved, so at peace, so totally in love.
and yeah. i miss you. write.please.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-934410772003-04-28T20:07:00.000-07:002003-04-28T20:07:17.190-07:00go shorty, it's yuour birthday..
well, your last post was on, MY, birthday, but oh-well.
i love you. lol.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-932290452003-04-25T01:06:00.000-07:002003-04-25T01:06:58.326-07:00no one answers.
no one ever answers.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-926127002003-04-14T16:13:00.000-07:002003-04-14T16:13:02.280-07:00no maam.Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-926119252003-04-14T15:57:00.000-07:002003-04-14T15:57:46.543-07:00dont know Rage Against Machine lyrics? loljacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-925937842003-04-14T10:25:00.000-07:002003-04-14T10:25:45.873-07:00HEY!
i dont know. lol.
i love you.
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-923321632003-04-09T19:36:00.000-07:002003-04-10T22:15:43.000-07:00ROUND AND ROUND YOUR FAMILY,
with a pocket full of shells.
rally round your family,
WITH A POCKET FULL OF SHELLS.jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-923186302003-04-09T15:18:00.000-07:002003-04-09T15:18:57.060-07:00and here's to transistion:
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
;p
Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-923168852003-04-09T14:45:00.000-07:002003-04-09T14:45:53.496-07:00BLAH TO THIS BLOGGER NOT WORKING!
I feel like we all live in a sitcom, like, each year is another season in our drama, lol. I WAS HECKA EXCITED ABOUT DAWSONS CREEK! i noticed it was on all morning hecka early sometime last week! they play them in order too! =)
Last night was... weird... in every conversation i had. but i was also kind of.. paranoid... or, i dont know.
i was upset when u and jacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-922988712003-04-09T09:26:00.000-07:002003-04-09T09:26:53.170-07:00the rory/paris harvard cspan dealie.
i wish i could see manuel. i miss him soooooo much. esp. since, i've been in high school sitcom world all morning, ( did you know the superstation play dawson's creek rereuns for-like-ever on weekday mornings?) i don't know about last night. i guess i was just in a another world. i wasn't getting my conversations straight..and it was hard to even respond to Ramanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00906129640614691329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3145724.post-922770612003-04-09T00:40:00.000-07:002003-04-09T00:40:04.123-07:00good! ..... which one? loljacihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08871573490734853979noreply@blogger.com